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- Just created this part of the webpage in hope of writing down all of my thoghts.
- immidietly reconsidering the creation because of the possible damage that it can do too the sites integrity as a monument of pure love
- thinking if I should write vaguly or if I should fully write down my thoughts on current events and also if I should write in the first perd
- it’s 2:42 currently and I'm scared I won't be even able to finish this till I'll fall asleep because I'm really tired
- I've deleted some messages for you earlier and I know you'll probably get mad at me if I tell you I deleted em and ill show you the screenshot I took when deleting em knowing I'll show you sooner or later
- I'm starting to forget what were the main ideas I've wanted to discuss which is really upsetting but I hope I'll remember
- idk if making this page is a heal thing to do but the main idea was to express my feelings in a bigger depth so you understand more
-also here's the one thing that you always don't want to talk about and I'm just hoping that it’s not something we could calmly discuss and fix together and you're just scared to think about it
- another important thing to write here in hopes you'll read it someday and probably tommoros because if I know myself I'll probably tell you that I started to vent here is that
- fell asleep for like an hour while beastars are playing in the background and saly forgot what I've wanted to say
- i don't know but I'm still really scared of you leaving because I can promise and try but you have to wait for me to actually prove my worth and I'll always make mistakes or something completely different like you getting bored which would be heartbreaking for life and yes that's selfish but I want to love somebody and be loved back the same way and sadly youv made me unable to love someone as much as I do you ever again
- just cryed again because this text isnt evem slightly as complicated or more like conveying my thoughts about you but you can at leasr know that when I say I love you I actually mean it and this is just a mere mini example of what goes through my mind
- im gonna head of to sleep and hope that you still love me and that this paragraph wont do more damage which is a really bad thing to hope for given that its supped to fix things even just if a little bit
- okay its five am and i cant sleep uhhmmm beastars is like zootopia on steroids- i have so many things to tell you and im writing some of em down for when well call or whem i dont know what to talk about through texts
- my phone has 5% in thats enough givem that its 7am and ive been overthinking too much
- maybe theres something wrong with me or im ill thinking abour all of this but at least im still loving you more than anything so its not that bad
- and i want you to know that maybe im not capable of thinking dxtra straight rn but these things im writing are pieces at least of im trying make knows for you
- example is the sex thing but it may seem that im chasing some high or like that but actually i just wsnt to be given a chance to improve and prove that with your help and with the goal to make you as happy as possible in the outcome
- i have to be totally shitted out of you getting pissed off yesteday so im really going to sleep now at 9am and hopefully youll text me in the morning
- and yk whats the worse thing about all of this? its that i would convey all of this in a simple gemuine hug and sorry but i cant